Job searching is an interesting experience...

to say the least.

(but how is my mental state?)

Have been in Charlotte NC for little over two months now, still looking for that big break. I will be the first to admit I'm not the best at networking (But I'm trying to get better). Though I have met some interesting and inspiring people here so far.

Little about me... So I left Dubai in the hopes to find my style, reconnect with my creative roots. Dubai was great in the sense it taught me how to adapt to styles and work with various clients. Many to Most Successful experiences... with a few hiccups due to creative differences or poor planning by me or my clients. (Learning experiences).

Dubai is mainly a very clean and glamorous place. (I would describe it as LA and Paris raising an Arab baby) Lots of fashion, beauty, snobby clubs, and too much money to spend in one place. I feel this affected my style and challenged me creatively. Luckily I had some outlets so I could express my crazier concepts. Though overall, the work I did was meant to be very clean and focused on glamor... which is not what I got into film to do. I definitely feel like my creative style is ultimately confused.

WOAH NOW! LETS LIGHTEN THE MOOD!

So here I am, back on my home turf. Seeking a style of my own... though definitely hard when I don't own much equipment. I have myself a 7D, and my GoPro Hero 3.... I've worked with so many different cameras and equipment provided on my various projects, that I never stopped to purchase my own (HAHAHAHA SILLY ME! *Face Palm*). This makes Freelancing very difficult to say the least. I of course have a dream list of equipment...*day dreams*, But I need to learn to work with what I got.

I'm sure there is many people that have the same problems I face. So many ideas... but never go out and do them. I'm always caught in that loop of waiting for that right moment or waiting for the right equipment to go do it, but that day never comes. (This is a problem I know I NEED to work on)

WHERE I WANT TO BE IN 2020!

My dream is to have my own production studio by the time I'm 30. Lead a team of Lost Boys (and Girls) toward artistically wild nirvana! This gives me less than 7 years to figure out the details.

I look to my friends for inspiration, because they are growing and figuring it out along with me. Toaster Images, Atum Productions, OverseeRs, MXB Studios, EightOverNine Designs, Sandbox Pictures, Dramatic Parrot, and many many more! To anyone i didn't mention... bummer! But seriously, almost everyone I've met has inspired me in some way, I've only mentioned the ones that are trying to make a name for themselves.

Most of my friends would say they rarely see me. I'm definitely a person who hides away until I have something to show or prove. I strive to entertain in all aspects of my life. I work based on the goal to inspire. For me to inspire, I first need to feed myself with inspiration from my friends and the works around me to produce a piece that hopefully inspires them to push themselves.

It's how the creative circle works. They do something amazing that inspires me, I then work harder to impress them, then my work inspires them to make something even more impressive, and then the cycle repeats itself. Hopefully this cycle continues forever.

Inspired is the polite way of saying you're jealous... but doesn't inspiration sound much better. I'd never say I was jealous of someones work, just deeply inspired!

WELL THIS TURNED INTO A RANT....

What my point of this was just to show were my mindset is at the moment (obviously scattered). I'm still looking for employment in the field I have a degree in. I'm absolutely passionate about film in all ways, and I really hope I can express myself through it and inspire others along the way.

Hopefully things will turn around soon and make the connections I need, to do the work I want to do!

Fingers crossed! Wish me luck! And leave me a comment below!

what should i rant/blog about next?